“We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls” – Anais Nin     Photo Courtesy: Leio McLaren

Glory to Baba Budan

It is 2.30 PM. I pause to notice the silence around me. It dawns on me that I am in a video call. And the people on the screen are quiet. Looking a me. It further occurs to me that I am the one who is running the meeting. And I have fallen asleep in…

Looking glass

Some things beg to be written. It happened when I was least expecting it, like these things always happen. I moved my laptop to clear the way and the phone, tethered to the laptop for charging, smashed to the floor. There are more than twenty people in the room and well, the show must go…

D.E.S.I.R.E.

I am wondering if this is the right time to write about this. It is the season of wishes and gifts, but then, this is could very well be the perfect time to write about this. Because, as we get over eggnog and carols and fruitcakes, the New Year peeps around the corner and we…

Oh, the glory of Pain

“How do I know I am not dreaming?”, I ask. It very well could be a dream. To see you, in my living room, showing up, just like that. (I could swear I could hear music and there were white clouds. In the living room.) “Oh, that’s easy”, you say, your playful smile lingering just…

Jealousy – The green smoke

This one hits you hard, doesn’t it? May be you just met your college batch-mate who showed off his properties and the new car. Or it was your colleague who just seems to have it all together leaving you wonder “How????” You get that burning sensation just above your heart. You are smiling, but you…

The dress

I was captivated. I was at the movies. This was a popular one. The sound track, the songs were a hit. It was a youthful, light hearted, funny movie. But when I came away, more than the laughs, I was thinking how good the girls looked in their dresses. The word “dress” was something I…

The fault in our armours

It ended up being an interesting day. It didn’t feel like it at the time though. I got into a heated argument with a colleague. A dear friend. I had done something that  had rubbed her off the wrong way and she was upset. Furious. I had to gather my courage and take a few…

Million ways to dispel pain

Pain. Buddhism tells to live through it. Alchohol laughs. With a melodious whistle it beckons. “Drown it. I will put a smile on your face”. Intellect raises a brow. What is causing this pain? Dissect it. Get to the root of it. Is it your ego? Is it the social construct that you unconsciously feel…

Destiny or Willful Blindness?

Sometimes Universe, or Destiny or Fate or whatever you would like to call it, does have its own plan. At least it feels better to think that way rather than amusing over how people can, collectively turn dumb at the same time leading to epic blunders. The epic I am talking about here is Ramayana….

Aurobindo’s secret or The drawback of Psychoanalysis

All excerpts are from the book ‘The Adventure of Consciousness’ by SatPrem. “We cannot heal unless we heal all the way down, and we cannot go all the way down unless we go all the way up. The deeper we want to descent, the more powerful the light we need, otherwise we are eaten alive.”…

facing the wall

What is loneliness? It is that thing in you that yearns to be recognised by the other. An other that is external to you. And the recognition does not come. You want to be heard and there is only silence. Words that are said in silence and heard in silence. You want to dance. And…

Trekking the Hampta Pass – The people

It was the night before we would depart from Chatru camp site to go back to Manali. Jagat, our lead guide started his usual briefing after the dinner. In his characteristic solemn voice he described the coming day’s plans to us, congratulated us for finishing the trip without too many issues and then went on,…