“We travel, some of us forever, to seek other states, other lives, other souls” – Anais Nin     Photo Courtesy: Leio McLaren

Truce

I think we need to talk. We have always had a difficult relationship. It is time I acknowledge that. It has been one-sided, you pursuing me at the most uncomfortable moments and me resisting you as long as I could. And then invariably falling for you. Falling hard. At the most uncomfortable moments. We started…

Good Life

The box in which he is lying in reads “Good Life”. How ironic, I couldn’t help thinking. It is a cardboard box carton of the milk brand we buy. But that is besides the point. His still body lies there and it is still warm. I desperately feel for a heart beat. I don’t hear…

Meditation and the mosquito

“That would be 400 for one class”. As I hand my card to the lady at the desk I hear a familiar voice behind. “Hello, Rajesh, I didn’t expect to see you here!”. I turn around to see Vidya, my wife’s best friend in the apartment complex and my source of annoyance. “Oh, this will…

A magical visit… to the hospital

The thermometer read 102 degrees Fahrenheit. I felt bad for the kid. It is a rare occasion that he would forego dinner and sleep like this, exhausted. Heart in heart I knew it was a viral infection and all he needed was more rest, but with his Graduation ceremony coming up in two days, I…

Glory to Baba Budan

It is 2.30 PM. I pause to notice the silence around me. It dawns on me that I am in a video call. And the people on the screen are quiet. Looking a me. It further occurs to me that I am the one who is running the meeting. And I have fallen asleep in…

Looking glass

Some things beg to be written. It happened when I was least expecting it, like these things always happen. I moved my laptop to clear the way and the phone, tethered to the laptop for charging, smashed to the floor. There are more than twenty people in the room and well, the show must go…

D.E.S.I.R.E.

I am wondering if this is the right time to write about this. It is the season of wishes and gifts, but then, this is could very well be the perfect time to write about this. Because, as we get over eggnog and carols and fruitcakes, the New Year peeps around the corner and we…

Oh, the glory of Pain

“How do I know I am not dreaming?”, I ask. It very well could be a dream. To see you, in my living room, showing up, just like that. (I could swear I could hear music and there were white clouds. In the living room.) “Oh, that’s easy”, you say, your playful smile lingering just…

Jealousy – The green smoke

This one hits you hard, doesn’t it? May be you just met your college batch-mate who showed off his properties and the new car. Or it was your colleague who just seems to have it all together leaving you wonder “How????” You get that burning sensation just above your heart. You are smiling, but you…

The dress

I was captivated. I was at the movies. This was a popular one. The sound track, the songs were a hit. It was a youthful, light hearted, funny movie. But when I came away, more than the laughs, I was thinking how good the girls looked in their dresses. The word “dress” was something I…

The fault in our armours

It ended up being an interesting day. It didn’t feel like it at the time though. I got into a heated argument with a colleague. A dear friend. I had done something that  had rubbed her off the wrong way and she was upset. Furious. I had to gather my courage and take a few…

Million ways to dispel pain

Pain. Buddhism tells to live through it. Alchohol laughs. With a melodious whistle it beckons. “Drown it. I will put a smile on your face”. Intellect raises a brow. What is causing this pain? Dissect it. Get to the root of it. Is it your ego? Is it the social construct that you unconsciously feel…